Am I Having Fun Now: Anxiety, Applause and Life's Big Questions, Answered

Reserve your copy now! Expected release is August 4, 2026. Will ship on or after August 4, 2026. Limited copies available. 

Honest, moving, and very funny: award-winning comedian Suzi Ruffell tells the story of a life afflicted with anxiety, and asks the experts to answer some of life's big questions along the way.

Does peaking in high school ruin you for life? Was Miley Cyrus right, is it all about the climb (when it comes to building a career)? And what—scientifically—is the best way to mend a broken heart?

Comedian Suzi Ruffell is considering life's big questions.

In this brutally honest, funny, and often moving memoir, Suzi winningly tells her life story, and asks a host of experts to answer the tricky questions it prompts along the way. Diamond life advice comes from contributors including Elizabeth Day, Dolly Alderton, Charlene Douglas, Laura Bates, Owen O'Kane, Dr Kirren Schnack, and more.

From masking anxiety with musical theatre , developing an obsession with the movie Titanic, and struggling to find her groove at school, on stage, and in her love life, to (eventually) coming out, falling in love, and becoming a parent Suzi lays her life bare with trademark wit, verve and style.

This book is riveting, relatable and revealing. Studded with brilliant, cutting observations on feminism, being working class in the world of arts and comedy, LGBTQ+ equality and the up- and downsides of ambition, Am I Having Fun Now is perfect reading for fans of Fern Brady's Strong Female Character,Sarah Pascoe, Elizabeth Day, and Tom Allen.